& somewhat I think, If I'm skinny and beautiful, I won't ever feel this terrible.
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul.
I wanna have control.
I want to be beautiful.
It just makes everything seems alright if I’m pretty.
I feel like crap now.
& I don’t want anyone to console me now.
HAHA.
After all, all you fucking care is about what you feel, what you want from me, what you need, everything you. Everything has to be about you and your feelings. My wants and needs should be compromised to make ways for yours huh? No way in hell will that happen.
My life should be about me and full of me, I don’t care if I sound like a bitch. I just want things to go my way, MY WAY! If being a heartless bitch makes my life a whole lot better and happier, I’ll trade my heart for anything, not this. I’ll trade my heart for something realistic because I simply don’t believe in what you’re desperately trying to prove to me, I don’t want to be in love and I don’t think I will in the near future.If love happens, it happens but now, I don’t think it will. I don’t know where my heart is now.
I don’t want to feel anything anymore. It pisses me off feeling dissapointed or just really upset. & Sleeping sounds like a very good idea, I don’t have to deal with shit anyway.
Have a fucking goodnight.